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Dancing When the Stars Go Blue [June 18, 2006 @ 5:56pm] [ mood | blank ] Okay, so today is father's day. I haven't updated in forever. Regardless of the fact that NO ONE reads this. Uhm, school's been over for a while, thank God. I'm dating Josh now and he's pretty much awesome. Not much stress at the moment. Which is good. I've got a church I go to all the time now. It rocks. I have a lot of close friends who rock. That's about it. Comment

Oh Lordy me. [February 21, 2006 @ 8:33pm] [ mood | bored ] It's been a while since I updated. Things are going... nuts. I am finally getting a car. I'm still single, but Dustin's trying to hook me up with one of his friends. Yeah, okay. I've made some new friends recently and it's cool. I'm auditioning for advanced women's next week instead of this week because Spears is leaving and I'm sick. Uhm, school's become really hectic and I'm not doing so well in math. Scratch that, I'm doing awful in math. Rawr. Drew and I never happened and that's okay. He went out with a freshman for food and she cheated on him anyway. Karma. Yeah. There's not much else to report on. Amnah, if you read this "BUTTER MAH BUTT 'N CAWL ME A BISCUT!" Haha, miss you. <3 Comment

Oh no. [January 10, 2006 @ 7:09pm] [ mood | distressed ] So, my sister is going through some hard times right now and I really don't like it. I love her to death and you know, you just don't want these kinds of things to happen to someone you love. She's the best friend I've ever had and if anything were to happen to her, my world would fall to pieces. She's more important than any other guy could be to me. No other guy could love her as much as my twin and I love her. I really just can't feel okay with myself knowing that my sister, my best friend, isn't doing well. I can't concentrate on homework, nor is it getting done. I just really hope and pray things will get better for her. :-/ Comment

Blah [December 27, 2005 @ 2:57pm] [ mood | blah ] So, recently it's been crazy. I spent an amazing weekend in Fayette with Nicki, Dani, and Drew. I really like Drew & it sucks so bad that he lives in Fayette. Now, everytime any other guy comes my way acting like he likes me I push him away just enough to make things weird or to hurt me. I wish Drew wasn't out of town right now. I really hope Nicki isn't mad at me too. Because she's my best friend, my sister, and I don't know what I'd do without her. This is just crazy. Christmas was okay. It could have been better. Everyone's getting cars and none of them have liscences. It's not fair in the slightest. Why can't I have a car? I just want a truck for crying out loud but that's obviously too much to ask. I know we can't really afford it but whatever. I'm just in a depressed mood. Comment

Long week. [December 02, 2005 @ 7:43pm] Well this week started out okay. Then Tuesday it went COMPLETELY down hill. So Wednesday I got checked out, came home to sleep for two and a half hours, then went to the doctor. Yesterday, I had nothing to do. So, I went and got some sushi, went to Sara's then we all went to her art show. Today, chorus was amazing. Lots of dancing (singing of course) and even some banana peels. HAHA. Yeah, it was great. It gave me energy. That's the kind of class I need. It was a good end to an awful week. We got an 87 on our science fair project. I worked my ass off for three and a half hours to get an 87?! I don't think so. I can't stand that woman. She freaking -- ew. Anywho, that's about it. I grabbed some curb today on the way to Zaxby's. Oops. <3 Comment

I'm so sick of everything [November 21, 2005 @ 9:17pm] [ mood | crappy ] Okay, so it all started last Monday. Yes, it was Monday. He didn't call. He didn't call me all week. I talked to him once, and he said he'd call back. Did he? No. I mean, it's okay -- it's not like we're dating or in a relationship that I know of, so why should I be getting upset about it? I had a really stressful week with school and what not. Friday after school I went down Camden with Laine -- which is like 400 miles away from home. I had a great time. We watched our team beat the number one team in the state. It was very nerve racking, but overall -- a great game. We celebrated my brother's birthday yesterday. Then last night, HE finally called. We talked for about twenty minutes and he was really tired so we got off the phone so he could sleep, which says nothing for me because I couldn't sleep for the life of me. This morning we had to do some lame ass gateway practice in chemistry and everyone just BSed it. It was so freaking lame. Then, we had a test in math. In chorus I found out some terrible terrible awful shitty news. I found out my friend Jamal, who is one of the nicest guys I have ever met, died this weekend. I really can't believe it. He was such an amazing guy and I don't know what to do or how to feel because no one close to me has died before. It's really truly depressing. I almost broke down atleast five times today. I did have a break down and no one was there. I was alone. It was an awful feeling. I needed him, and he was too busy for me. I still need him, but I have a strong feeling he won't be calling me unless I call him or bug him about calling me. I really don't want to be at home, nor do I want to go to school. If I can, next weekend (not this weekend -- the next) I'm probably going to Nic*Nak's. I need to be with my best friend. I need my best friend. & even though she's miles away and busy SHE found time to call me and check on me. I guess my expectations are just WAY too high. I don't know. I'm just very down right now. Comment

jdsgbvdkbvj [November 05, 2005 @ 6:53pm] [ mood | crappy ] I don't know what hurts more. The fact that he tells me all about the girls he likes. Or the fact that he flirts with me and I flirt back but he doesn't realize how much I love him. Or the fact that he used to care how I feel now he just seems to blow it off when I act different. God, I hate it when I get into these funks. I hate it when I cry like a baby over nothing. I really don't like myself much right now. <///x///3 Read (1) Comment

HC and an odd week. [October 28, 2005 @ 11:49pm] [ mood | tired ] Well, this week I made plenty of realizations. To begin; +I don't study enough +I still really like him +I need to focus more +I need to go to bed earlier +No matter what I do, my brother will always be a terd to me +Honors chorus music is not as good as other music. This week, was pretty boring. I've been tired all week. What else is new? Today was honors chorus. It was my first time. We worked our butts off in rehersals. I actually didn't like sectional work. I thought I'd like it the best, but I didn't. Lunch was alright. It took us (Heather, Kristen, Caitlin, Megan, Caitlin[sp?], Merideth, and I) forever to figure out where to eat. When we got there the waitress took for-fucking-ever to come to us. It took anywhere from 20-45 minutes to get our food. My food was the last to come out and I got a FUCKING SALAD. I was like WHAT IN THE HELL IS THIS PLACES FUCKING PROBLEM?! So, I was like, "Can you give us our checks?" The lady went and got them and when we gave her our money, she took 10-15 minutes to get us fucking change. The damned woman... I was so fucking pissed I was like there's no way in hell that bitch is getting a tip. So I just left and Kirsten and I ran back to the classic center. We were late, of course because of that stupid woman. Then, for dinner we (Heather, Kristen, Caitlin, Caitlin [Sp?], Megan, Ben, Justin, David, Nathan, and I) got smoothies (or ice cream) and went over to the church lawn and hung out. Then we started to walk around downtown Athens aimlessly. We stopped a lot for the guys to beat box and then some old guy comes up to them and goes, "YOU NEED MORE BASS!" We were like LMAO. Then, we stopped on this one street corner and started singing. It was fun. Then we went back to the SAME place where we had shitty service and WHAT DO YOU KNOW?! It was still shitty. I KNEW we shouldn't have gone back. Then we went back to the Classic Center for final rehersals of the night. Then we came home. Laine and I stopped with my mom at BK seeing as how we were hungry. That was about it. <3 Comment

Crazy Night [October 19, 2005 @ 5:29pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | SHEdaisy ] Last night was INSANE. My friend called and was like, "I'm picking you up, oh yeah and my mom just hit me." Holy shit if that did not scare me. So we went to rehearsals. The younger and less advanced were being freaking annoying. Our teacher today told us that they really look up to us and we are their role models. I was like sheesh, I'm a sophmore being a role model for ALL 9-12. Dagum. Then, they guys kept making this humming noise to sound like a cell phone and shit. It really pissed me off. I was like dude, wtf. I was getting ready to scream at someone. So, my mom is making practice parallel parking. I really don't want to because of where we have to do it. I'd be okay if we did it in our neighborhood or something, but we don't have anywhere in here to do it. Ahh. I have to take that stupid test this weekend anyway. I really am nervous, but I don't want to take it either. Because, I mean seriously. It's ugh. I just hope I pass so I don't have to deal with this annoyance any longer! I got to see my brother today. I haven't talked to him in two weeks. It's pretty insane. We didn't really discuss any problems, because well, he never knew I was mad at him. Whatever though. I like three guys. None of them know I like them and only my best friends know who they are. And a few other people. Only one person knows ALL of them. That would be my best best friend. Yeah, whatever. Uhm, that's it for now. My LJ sucks because I'm stupid when it comes to LJ codes and shit. I'm a xanga and myspace girl. Read (1) Comment

First Post [October 17, 2005 @ 8:06pm] Alright, I made a new one of these for the pure reason of venting and no one really seeing it. I made this layout on my own and it was a beeyotch if I must say so. So this guy, he has a name but since I'm nice I won't use it. He's the biggest jerk. He leads me on for a week and then drops me on my ass expecting me to be okay. I've vowed no to talk to him for a week. Perhaps you see this as childish, I just see it as me not saying something I'll regret one day. I really want a car. It really sucks that we have to have so many repairs done to our house and now we can't afford a car. I am hopefully getting my liscence this weekend. I really want a car so I can go see people and not worry about having to take my parents' cars. A van and a truck with a camper top. This sucks. Also, I'm sick. I had to get a shot in my ass and it's so sore now. I missed a freaking test. Ahh. There's these other two guys I like. I don't know what to do. I see one everyday for atleast three hours. He's so awesome and I've known him for four years. The other guy, I've known for about half a year and have only hung out with him once. We talk a lot. Yeah, whatever. LoveLoveLove Comment

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